(Notebook quote by Alexandra Bracken, notebook from a subscription box)
This is just from personal experience.
You become even better at procrastinating. You avoid the things that bring you joy because they require mental power: energy that your brain just wants to use on thinking about anything else but your, or anyone else’s book world.
You find it difficult to concentrate for very long, your brain wanting to go back to worrying and obsessing.
If a book isn’t a quick, intriguing read, it takes a very long time to get through and you will be tempted to abandon it and start something new.
Goals make you feel stressed but if you don’t have them then you can easily not write for a long time, you spend this time thinking about writing, rather than actually doing it because the fear of starting is too great.
You find it difficult to spend free time thinking about your book world because your mind wants to focus on anxiety instead.
I find there is a lack of articles out there on writing and reading when you have anxiety and depression. A lot of readers online with anxiety or depression seem to spend a lot of time reading but I have found that this is not the same for me, I can pick up a book and feel very interested after a while and read a lot in one or two days but most of the time I will spend drifting between books and spending more time thinking that I should read than actually doing it. However, I am working on this, finding that I need to push myself to do things that I enjoy because I do enjoy them.
Have any of you had or still have similar experiences? Feel free to share in the comments if you would like to.If you are suffering with any symptoms of a mental illness please visit your doctor and please do not give up.