I don’t know about you but I always thought that once I finished school and university, I would find the perfect career, start in it straight away and scale the corporate ladder. Well, now I am past the university stage, I can tell you that this has not happened for me.
I took a Criminology degree, intending to go into the police and write novels on the side. I ended up changing my mind about the police service; it just wasn’t for me as I grew up. I realised that I wanted to write more so I worked part-time and tried to focus on writing. However, mental health got in the way. Fast forward to some time later and I am still working on the same novel. I started my blog this year. In the previous couple of years I had started a bookstagram (posting book photos on Instagram), moved to booktube (book videos on YouTube) and finally settled onto book blogging. To my surprise, I even started discussing lifestyle topics. I feel like someone who is really not qualified to do so!
Lately, I have been feeling lost. I am working hard, trying to make my dreams of being a full-time blogger and author come true but I feel like I’m blindfolded, walking around in circles with my hands trying to grasp the future. I read a post discussing this topic (https://chloemetzger.com/2018/04/06/im-in-a-funk/) and I really resonated with it. This is exactly how I am feeling! It made me realise that I am not the only one feeling lost. Even when I get into my 30s, 40s and beyond, there are still going to be things that I worry about.
I am trying to live in the now and reduce my worries which is not easy when you have anxiety. I am trying to just keep writing and hope that something comes along. After all, we grow on a daily basis and you never know what is around the corner.
Do you feel lost or have you felt lost in the past? How did you move past it?